I have pulled this weight behind me
Through the mud and past the trees.
You sat in that wagon smiling at me
But there were things you didn't see.

So if it were easy I'd have already thrown in the towel.
Instead I cover myself with it soaked in irreplaceable memories.
You said you'd shower me with hope looking through a kaleidoscope
But this life comes with no guarantees
and you were never guaranteed to me.

These images are soon to haunt me
and when you come in my dreams will you miss me?
God, I'm just so tired and alone in my thoughts.
Maybe one day when I awake
I'll slip into my very own fate.

You stood on the other side of my crossroads
and you should have seen it when my foot was across the line.
You would have been so proud
but in a second it was gone for reasons that cannot be spoken.

"When I got closer and closer to you, I felt alive. I know this isn't your ideal situation but it's what comes with loving me."

and when everything was said and done it couldn't be reversed.
and I'll hope and I'll hope but I'll be the only one.
and you'll never know the real story.
and I'll never get a chance to read it.